Twenty-Two….
It’s been quite a long time since my last blog. To be honest for a good chunk of time I had lost interest in just about everything, including blogging. Hell, including eating. I’ve lost roughly 4lbs since I moved to Vegas….and if you’ve ever seen me you know I can’t afford to lose any weight.
These are obvious signs of depression. I went to see my physician about a possible eating disorder (most likely associated with depression) a couple weeks ago. I don’t have the body image issues that are associated with something like anorexia, but my bmi is certainly considered underweight.
The fact I went to a behavioral health place (therapist/psychologist) voluntarily is a good sign in itself. I’ve gone through about 5 different antidepressants in my lifetime now without any help. They’ve actually done more harm than good, but I’m going to start therapy again as well as continue my search for a functional antidepressant.
I’m currently back in Stow, OH. I decided to stop by and celebrate my birthday with my family and also get a chance to spend time with some of my old friends from around here. I’ve been feeling better and it’s been nice to get out and see autumn back east. Being in the desert for 3 months straight was kind of like being in Ohio during the winter. When I came back I almost forgot about trees and grass and leaves that change colors!
It’s been a rough year for me, but I’m working on taking better care of myself and with that I’m confident I’ll be back in better form than ever. I recently turned 22 – more or less a mid-life crisis year in “poker years”, haha. I realize I’ve taken a lot for granted the past year and I’m really looking forward to some redemption this year.
Since I’m already on the east coast I’ll probably end up at Foxwoods next, possibly AC as well, I’ll have to check the exact schedules. Then I’ll head back to Vegas after Thanksgiving for Five Diamond. I’m also going to be doing some PokerVT work. I’m looking forward to getting back on the saddle and adding some more depth/layers to the site I once poured my heart into.
-Adam
